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Wondering

5 Apr

Wondering

I wonder what she’s thinking?

As she nestles her infant child in her arms, is she wondering about the recent UN report concerning climate changes and how we are slowly but surely walking down a narrowing path?

Or, maybe her mind is concerned about troops massing on various borders or Sudanese refugees or Syrian victims or terrorists whose passions erase the value of human life.

Or, perhaps she’s wondering about water for her child to drink or food shortages as the gap between the 1% and the 99% expands. And expands. And expands.

She looks like a kind and caring mother, as do all the ones on television each night weeping about the plight of their families and communities. She reminds me of mothers around the world who must be wondering what the future will hold for their innocent infants.

I wonder. Do you wonder?

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31,32,33…

19 Mar

31,32,33...

I drive along LaCholla Road everyday. Painfully, cautiously, and slowly.
Painfully because the major roadway is under construction and there are lots of unexpected bumps and thumps that rattle both the car and me. Cautiously because the safety-cone lined passageway for cars is narrow and twists back and forth as machines create controlled chaos on both sides. And, slowly because there is always a deputy sheriff concealed behind piles of dirt or rocks with a radar gun aimed at anybody who dares to go more than 25 miles an hour. Slowly, please, because construction zone fines can ruin your day.
One redeeming aspect of driving through the mess, though, is an opportunity to see artists at work. Thus the photo above. I watched for weeks as sturdy construction people placed the rocks you see one by one, hand to hand and created a lovely stone mosaic along the route. First the ground was packed hard, then wire mesh was laid, then cement poured and, finally, while the cement was still wet, a single line of construction artists took one stone at a time from a huge pile, passed the stone from one man to the next until the last man in line nestled it into the waiting cement. One at a time. Rock by rock. And, as you can see in the photo, there is a lovely line of white rocks flowing lazily through the many shades of brown. It’s quite beautiful.
But imagine the effort, the painful process of placing one stone and then another and then another, day after day.
Several things occur to me. I’m grateful for artistry all around me, in common things and in unexpected places. Stunning beauty is everywhere. Also, I appreciate the seemingly tedious efforts of people who often do common tasks, jobs that I pass by without a second glance, but who produce creative beauty in subtle ways. The waitress who delivered the colorful salad yesterday…the landscaper who turned my yard into a special place…the house painter next door whose meticulous care for detail shows in every brush stroke…the hummingbird building a penthouse straw by straw in my oak tree.
Perhaps I ought to slow down more often and observe beauty taking shape.
Slowing down is never a bad idea…especially when there’s a radar gun in the neighborhood.

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It Only Sleeps

12 Mar

It Only Sleeps

Not very attractive, is it?
It could be, and will be, when it’s shaped up and decides to look like the lovely oak tree that it is. Not wanting to chop on it here and there myself, I sent this same photo to a tree landscape specialist who answered my email in this way: Your tree is obviously dead. For $25 we will consult with you about removing it.
Dead? I don’t think so.
What he could not see at a distance in a photo are all the green shoots covering the barren looking limbs. My oak tree is ready to burst into new bloom. I can see it myself. I can see it because I stood close to it when I snapped the picture. I got close enough to see what’s really happening to my tree.
Too bad, isn’t it, that some of us make judgments at distances without getting close enough to see the green shoots of promise or hope or possibility? Making judgments at arm’s length about people or circumstances so often distorts reality and sends us off on twisted paths of fear or anger.
The budding life of my oak tree was affirmed the day I took this picture by two tiny objects that you cannot see in the picture. The very top of the tree is cropped off in the picture, but sitting on the delicate threads of branches at the top are two finches. They were singing their hearts out in that moment, probably telling the world that something new and wonderful is about to happen. New life is coming back into the old frame. Green shoots in the warm sun are about to unfold as lush, green leaves.
Stand close before you make up your mind. It is not dead…it only sleeps!
Sing on, birds!

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Just Like A Mom!

19 Jan

Just Like A Mom!

I read too much these days about Moms and Dads who neglect or abuse their children. Perhaps we should take a lesson from the wonder of creation. For instance, in the dry desert where I live it is not unusual to find a mesquite, or palo verde, or ironwood tree embracing a saguaro cactus. The cactus, fragile at birth and tender, grows up under the caring protection of the “nurse plant”. The tree provides shade, nourishment, and stability as the saguaro matures. It cares for its little neighbor, even though they are very different. It’s nice to see things care for each other. Maybe we ought to pay attention.

A Knock At The Door

16 Dec

It started out as a nice church program for children in the neighborhood.  Costumes.  Food.  Fun.  Games.  A recipe for a great time.

The focus of the evening was an Advent program called Las Posadas.  It is a reenactment of the Joseph and Mary journey to Bethlehem where they seek shelter but find only a rough stable in which their first child is born.  But before the stable became their temporary home, according to the legend, they were turned away from inns and other living quarters because there was no room available.  In the reenactment of the couple’s search for warmth, food, and a place to sleep, costumed characters, followed by lots of children from the church, walk through the neighborhood, pausing several times to symbolically knock on a door, only to be rejected and turned away into the night.  Finally, in one last effort, the characters come back to the church, knock on the door and receive an invitation to come inside for refreshment and rest.  “You are welcome here,” the innkeeper-actor announces, and brings them in from the night cold to tables filled with food and drink.

So, last night was Las Posadas, and went quite well.  The procession found its way back to the church, everyone came inside and the party began.

I walked back into the kitchen where we had prepared the feast, watched for a moment as children sang and danced and filled their plates.  And then there was a knock at the door.  Not the front door through which the children had come, but the back door that opened onto a rather dark parking lot.  Opening the door, I found a man standing in the dim light holding a frayed cap in one hand and a small plastic bag in the other.  “I saw a light on”, he said, “and I wondered if you might have some way to heat up this food.”

There wasn’t much in his bag, maybe a scoop of something he had left from several small meals.  “I’m hungry,” he continued, “and I thought you might be able to help me.”  He was living on the street, homeless like many people who come to the church food pantry and take part in social services ministries.  And at that moment he was cold and hungry.

The beautiful irony of the moment was overwhelming.  Just minutes before, we had welcomed costumed homeless travelers who sought warmth and food.  The reenactment of the ancient story linked us with very important faith history and reminded us of hospitality and generosity. But the one who knocked at the back door was not costumed and perhaps he didn’t even know the old story.  The timing of his appearing was breathtaking.   

We put his little bag aside and took him into the larger room where he became part of the celebration.  He feasted and watched the festivities, met new friends, and feasted some more.  Several hours later he left, his frayed cap in one hand and a larger bag of food in the other.  As he walked into the night, he turned and blessed us.  Indeed, he did.

It started out as a nice church program for children in the neighborhood.  It ended as reenactment was transformed into reality.

The timing was perfect.

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Waiting For The Wonder

4 Dec

Waiting For The Wonder

No, I don’t get it either.
But it’s worth wondering about, isn’t it? How often do you see an upside down metal man with spikes coming out of his body? I’m waiting for the Freudian light to come on or the metaphorical meaning to slip into focus.
While waiting, though, let me just suggest that pondering the unexpected or unexplainable is time well spent. Who knows what wonderful insights might be slightly hidden behind the bizarre.
So, the next time you encounter the unusual…whatever it might be…don’t pass it by too quickly. Sit with it for a little while. Wonder about it. Let it say something to you.
I still don’t get it…but I’m waiting.

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56 Cent People

28 Nov

56 Cent People

No, it’s not a political sign. It defines safe travel not political persuasions. I think, though, it might encourage us to do “the right thing” as we dance and stumble through life. To do “the right thing” means one is informed by values, ethics, moral principles, or religious beliefs…or all of them. Values drive behavior.

That’s true in this morning’s news report about the sheriff in Maricopa County, Arizona, who has decided to save money in his budget by reducing the cost of the Thanksgiving meal given inmates to 56 cents per person. Do you know what you get for 56 cents per person? Not much. Some soy mixture, the article said. I think I’ll pass, thank you.

Nobody believes inmates ought to be treated like guests at the Hilton. Too many believe they ought to be humiliated and treated as if less than human until they’re turned back onto the streets repentant and rehabilitated. So in the name of saving money in the budget, let’s diminish their humanity even more and reminded them again and again that they are worth 56 cents on Thanksgiving Day.

The fallacy of letting inhumane values drive rehabilitation is that the anger and even rage produced by such money-saving brilliance, pent up in months or years of jail time and aimed at any form of authority, explode again on society when the cell door is opened and the 56 cent person is back in contact with the rest of us.

I’ve heard it said that prisons, where dignity and human values are lost, can become the best training grounds for deeper hatred and more violent behavior. Those places become school houses for violence. Maybe the wise philosopher of the comic strip, Pogo, got it right: “We have met the enemy and he is us!”

The Movable Feast

26 Nov

In my faith tradition there is a thing called a “movable feast”.  Sounds strange, doesn’t it?

A movable feast, as contrasted to a fixed feast, is an observance in the church’s calendar which occurs on different dates in different years..thus, movable.  The observance won’t be on the same date every year because the calendar changes.  So there you have it.

Easter, Palm Sunday, Pentecost, among many other observances, are examples of movable feast times.

But today I declare that I am a movable feast because this morning I joined several friends to cook a meal for a local shelter that provides lodging for homeless men.  My job in the cooking routine is to stand at the huge stove and cook big tubs of meat mixed with onions, green peppers, beans, lots of chili powder, some corn and a smattering of other exotic ingredients.  The final meat mixture is then combined with steaming rice, wrapped carefully in large containers and delivered to the shelter for the evening meal.

I’ve noticed, though, that when driving home after the meal preparation I carry with me the lingering aroma of onions and all the other spicy ingredients.  You should see the looks I get if I decide to make a shopping stop before taking a shower at home.   Stray dogs follow me down the sidewalk.  I am a walking, movable feast!  I guess that’s not so bad, however, because  in my faith tradition there is also the encouragement to become “bread for the world”, to provide nourishment for people in need, and to feed those who are hungry.  To do those things is our highest calling, not just to believe the right things and say the right words.  But it occurs to me that my movable feast fragrance might be offensive to some people.  At least that’s the way it seems when glances come my way at the hardware store before getting home to the shower.   I wonder why some people are offended and others seem not to be?  Maybe there’s a hint out of the faith tradition again – those who are fed, filled and satisfied sometimes breathe in life in different ways than those who are hungry and have no prospect of a daily meal. Strange, isn’t it, how one’s senses are dulled by plenty and sharpened by poverty.  Sadly strange how the smell of onions and peppers sometimes offends the nourished but delights the neglected.

Perhaps, instead of delivering the meal to the shelter and then driving to my comfort zone, I need to make my hardware stop in that particular part of town — better yet, maybe I need to take some individual servings of that fragrant meal in the back of my van.  Here comes the Movable Feast.

 

The Way We Were…The Way We Are

14 Nov

Some of my friends carry very heavy loads, things that are almost unbearable.  A sudden sickness that turns into a constant and long term battle; a financial reversal that shakes all securities; a loss that cripples the emotions and drains what little energy is available.  You have friends like that, too.

Someone said to me once, through tears and anguish, “if I could only go back in time.  If it could only be the way it used to be.”  I’ve never met anyone who has those options, but too many of us live in the deadening grip of that wishful fantasy.  The tight grip of “if only I could be the way I used to be” punishes us, distracts us from living, and causes us to wake up in the morning still longing for what used to be, still hoping for some reversal of reality, and still captive to fear or remorse or regret.

And, saddest of all, The Grip blinds us to the wonder of life still in our midst and still trying to get our attention.

My response to my friend was “you can never be what you were, but you don’t have to be what you are.”  There is yet a choice, and that choice..as the Sacred Word suggests..is to “choose life.”  Love over despair.  Now over then.  This moment with all its potential over that moment with all its pain.

I wish I had a magic wand to give my friend or a pill that might erase yesterday and shine healing light on today.   I don’t, but I know it’s true.  You can never be what you were…that’s gone.  But you don’t have to be what you are…the victim of yesterday.  Choose life.

 

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One Way or The Other

14 Nov

One Way or The Other

Some days are like this! Coming or going?